Single/Taken

I wish that I’m single.

WHY?

Haha! I don’t know.
What I know and I experienced, being in a relationship needs a lot of sacrifice.

Actually, I don’t wish to be single. That ‘unexpected wish’ suddenly pops in my mind, so I just wrote it down. LOL!

Or maybe, I wish for that because I am worried. Yeps. I’m leaving soon. Most probably, I’m not going to be in KK for a long period. It means, I’m gonna leave him here in KK for an unknown period of time. Gosh! It is so hard for me to say good bye to him. Even for a week. XD
When is the last time I’ve been away from him? I don’t remember
Just say I’m jiwang. OK. I get that. Haha! But the truth is, I don’t wanna leave him. Blame it to that ****. Kenapa la sa kena letak di sana. Huhu.

So, in this case. I wish I am single. Baru nda rasa berat hati mau kasi tinggal orang.

Being in love is one of the greatest gifts I received from God, and I really appreciate it.
Knowing him is also one of the best things ever happens in my life.
I’m just glad that I’m not single.

A sneak peek into our house :D

Mom's fav 'pet'..do not use it without her permission, err she won't let anyone use it..LOL!

ruang tamu yang masih kosong..we'll add more, someday.....

bathroom and toilet..haha

our small kitchen..

my small room
but hey, i love it..look at my bed, cute kan..hahaha!
tapi semak..

OK..Why did I post this? Bukan mau tunjuk2, just wanna post something about our small house. Still not used to sleep in my room, coz we're still new with it. We've move in to this house since 2 or 3 (or 4?) months ago. Weekend saja sa tidur di rumah. Belum sampai half year, I'm gonna leave this house for an unknown period of time..months, a year maybe

We're doing a house warming this weekend. Mau kasi sembahyang ni rumah *pemberkatan*
hopefully everything is going to be fine.

*fuh! pening kepala sa dengar tu orang tua bising saja..

Tick Tock Tick Tock

Oh the clock's tickin'!

Two weeks left, but I haven't prepared anything for my 'trip'. LOL! But hey, I bought a SKIRT. Haha! Ok that's not funny, but it's weird. Never in my life I bought a skirt, I mean a formal skirt. Does that words exist? Haha! OK that's it! To tell u the truth, I have no nice legs like any of u had. I bet u know the 'Chicken Pox'? Well, the pilat still remain on my legs. Not only that. I'm very sensitive with dust, grass, 'sawah', mosquito, 'agas', and any kinds of benda yang boleh mendatangkan gatal-gatal di badan. And...Malas pula cerita pasal tu, bikin malu sa.
Kasi pendek cerita, I don't wear skirts kalau pegi kuliah or office. JANGGAL. Tapi kalau pegi mana-mana la, sa hentam saja pakai. Kalau itu yang Tuhan bagi, terima sajalah kan? Apa buli buat.

Enough with that. Hehe. Well, I'm right now at kampung. Enjoying my day with the family and cousins. Thanks for their support. One of my cousin said, 'kau tahan saja bah, bagus tu dapat keja sana. nanti suda lama sikit, kau minta transfer laa. sama tahan saja la kalau ada itu ofis p******, memang ada tu'. Thanks to all my friends too, my ex-classmate, the Limadanglians, my buddies, my besties and the lecturer too. Without u guys, I'm nothing. I'm gonna miss each and everyone of u. Bah jarang sudah jumpa nantikan.

Oh. I need to buy a new shoes!

* Ngantuk pula sa, will continue writing something tomorrow!

Huggssss

Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You

This song reminds me of JB. Haha! Yeah. I'm leaving soon, and all I want is to be with him, family and friends. I'm gonna miss him. Being apart from them is one of my weakness. I wonder, how he's going to do when I'm not with him. Like, 'what he's going to do on weekend?', 'is he going out tonite or not', 'does he already eat or not', 'is my mom ok or not?', 'does my brother behave well or not?'. Too many questions.

You might say, 'Apalah, Tawau saja pun.' OK. Even Tawau saja, tapi if mau apply cuti susah macam mana? Kalau cuti 2hari saja, alang-alang juga. :) Kan? Lagipun I live with JB's brother and his family there, so nda mau juga kasi susah dorang. Bikin malu nanti, sudahlah menumpang. :(

Babe, whatever happen, I just want u to know that I always remember u, thinking of u. Hope that u feel the same way too. :) Jiwang pula sa. Isk! But deep down in my heart, mau saja sa tolak tu offer, tapi nanti orang cakap bodoh. Haha! Think positive lah kan. Penat-penat menghafal time interview, senang-senang ja tolak. Itu memang basug namanya. ;D Lainlah kalau the gaji nda menepati citarasa. LOL! Demand lagi, sudahlah no experience.

Sorry lah, i've posted the same story again. Well, not really, just a lil' bit. ;P I just wanna express how i feel right now. Wondering.

It's already 6a.m. Off to sleep. Goodnite (GOOD MORNING!)

My New Job

Yeah.. Already signed the appointment letter. Damn! I feel bad. Don't know why. Maybe because I didn't ask him and my family about it. I just signed it. Well, I'm the kind of person yang susah mau berjauhan sama family and him. But i should change if I want to be better kan? Luckily, I'm not going to be alone. I'll live with JB's brother and his family. What a relief.

Oh sorry! Forgot to tell U guys. 4weeks left, then I'm off to Tawau for work. I am really happy! But sad also. Because I had to leave them, my family, my JB, my friends, and my great life here at Kampung. I am totally gonna miss the weekends moment with my family. I know, it sounds like i'm not going back to my Kampung forever. But it is sad when I'm not there every weekend, spend some quality times with them, gossiping , and yups had fun with them. And I'm really sure, kurang sudah clubbing! Haha! Sa mo balik kampung ni hari Rabu, tiap-tiap minggu makan tu Mehun Sup sana gerai Tamparuli*yang adik beradik punya kadai*, tiap-tiap minggu hangout sama family sa, rajin-rajin pigi melawat rumah dorang. Pigi karaoke ramai-ramai, buat farewell party lagi*mo buat sembahyang pemberkatan*.

So, I think I'm gonna take a driving lesson so I can have that thing called driving licence. LOL! Sempat ka tu? Takut sa naik bus bah. Hopefully everything is gonna be alright! I just wish that, JB is gonna be alright here in KK, without me. My family, especially my sister and my mom. Wah! Have a lot of things to say, but I just can't type anymore. MOMUSOROU sudah sa ni.

Whatever it is, hope that God will always bless us.
Amen.

I HATE U!!

Damn! I really hate u M*S and AIR*SIA. How could you did that to me. LOL! I am really sad, mad, l.e.d? Haha! I'm so pissed of with the flight ticket, sekejap murah tapi mahal dia lama. HUH! I am suppose to be at Kuching tomorrow for the RWMF, but I have to cancel it because of the flight ticket is too expensive*for me*. Mom already agreed to sponsor my flight ticket, but kesian pula kan mau minta dia. Isk! Anak tak guna nanti. Nanti adik sa jeles. XD

I've already plan to go there since March. But see what happen? Dorang la tu, last minit cakap mau pegi. Mau beli ticket nda kasitau, suda beli baru kasi tau. Sitt punya Leejuk! Soooooooooo JEALOUS with them! I'd better stop talking about it. Dang!

OK BYE

>:(

Please Lah!

Was happy early this morning, but suddenly this girl came to see me and said "mati lah Ruth, mau kena potong sudah tu karen". She really spoil my mood. She did! She kept saying this, "kalau bos tau, kau yang kena marah ni". OK?? So, now it's my fault?? Sorry.... U are the one who never send the bills to me. How am I going to make the payment without the bill? And of course I don't know the total amount. Do I have to go to the gallery and ask for the bills from U? WRONG! U are the one who suppose to give me the bills, same as the other shop. I don't have to ask for the bill, they gave it to me by hand. Unless, if they asked me to get the bill. But U never did that also.

And now, yeah of course the boss will get mad! Haven't pay the bills since April. Why lah U never check the letter box! Because of U, I'm the one who'll be blame since I'm the one who'll prepare the payment. I really hate when they accused me for something that is exactly not my fault. This is the 3rd times the accused me. Since I'm the newbie, they blame it on me. GREAT!!

I'll admit if I did that mistake, but no, that is not my fault. Hope she'll realize that it's her fault. Whatever it is, I've resigned from the company. Not because of them, but I need to find a better 'place' where I can earn more and learn more. A big company maybe? Haha!

I think that's all for now. Wanna go out for lunch. See yaa!

*xoxo*

Our 6th years 06/07

First of all, I wanna thank God for He had blessed us. We've been together since 2003, that was 6years ago. Yay! Bukan senang, but it's all about patience and LOVE of course. Thanks to Sayang also. Tahan juga dia sama perangai sa yang macam lelaki. I have made a lot of mistakes, but he still there for me, accept me for the way I am. Was hoping that, everything will be ok. This year, no present because both of us have no time to jalan2. Nvm la, next time will give him something. No candle light dinner also, malas juga makan western food saja. So, this year we had our anniversary dinner at Nelayan Seafood, Bukit Padang. The food is ok, not bad at all. The most importnat thing is, we had great day yesterday. Happy + Blessed + Love, u name it. ^____^

hikhik..

got dance performances last nite..luckly we're there..the tourist are funny!

haha!

I have a lot of things to tell, but don't know why I didn't know what to write. The idea came, but lost somewhere in my head. Dang! It's all because of my work. I'll tell it later in my other post. Don't wanna ruin this post.

To sayang, U know that I really love U. I'm blessed to have someone like U. Biar dorang cakap ko nda hensem, peduli apa aku! Haha!

XOXO

Medical Check-up

Went to clinic after work, for a medical check-up. It's kinda awkward, cause i don't like clinic*hospital*. I don't like the environment, i mean the smell. LOL. And i think, it was my 1st medical check up for X-ray. Lagi la awkward! Have to buka everything, I mean baju and....

Why did I do medical check-up? Just fooling around. Haha! No lah. I received a call from this bank about my application for the post of *I forgot* since two weeks ago(Oh btw, the interview was done 2months ago). First, they asked for a copy of my parent's identity card, and today they asked for my medical check-up report. I'm actually still can't guess whether I'll get the job or not. But according to mu cousin, if they asked for your medical check-up, that means you will be hire.

If that so, I'll be very happy! It's like, a dream come true. Ever since I started my life as an account student, I've always dreamed of working in that bank *well actually other big company also*. And if I'm hired, that's a dream come true. I just can't wait.
BUT, If I'm not hired. What to do la kan, belum sampai rezeki sa lagi kot. Wahatever the result will be, I'll just keep my fingers cross. Who knows something good will happen?

Anyways, if I didn't get this job pun, will try again and again. Got interview lagi on Tuesday. This time it's a government, shortly from SPA. Haven't done any researches about the post. Later lah. Oh ya, this post is related with this post *the interview thingy* ---> Job Interview
Thanks for their advices, suggestions, and help. Thank You Very Much.