I'm Sorry, I Wanna Quit

Feels like quitting. I know it's gonna hurt my friend's feelings, but how about me? Thanks to her, I got this job and I have monthly income. But I don't like to work with 'him'. The more I know about this person, the more I know that he's kinda annoying. Yes I don't have any experience about this job, but I do know how to do it. But since I'm not really into 'him', I think I should quit. I've been humiliated once, I don't want to be humiliate again and again. I felt so embarrassed crying in front of many people. Only God knows how I feel. Maybe this job doesn't suits me. Maybe I should stick to be 'the singer' not 'the assistant'. lol! This is not about jealous or whatever it is, it's because of 'him'. I don't like to feel distress or stress or pressure when I work on something, coz it will make me feel angry(of course!) and distracted. I don't want any bad things happen, so the best thing is I should try to avoid. I know I won't get money if I quit my job, but my feelings is much more important than 'his' money. I don't wanna work to someone who's actually 'have to' accept me(I know that). I mean 'have to' is like 'I don't like u but I have to hire u because of someone'. No, please don't do that to me. U know what? I always feel bad for that, I doubt about my working skills. Am I really that bad? I am sad. And at the same time, I felt pity to my friend. She had faced this situation since she started working with 'him'. I know how stressed she was, what she had been deal with.

I have my own dream job too. If that's not what I want to be, then I'm not going to be serious with it. And yes, my family also wants me to get a good job. My sister did told me to find another job. I did. Hope my friend won't get hurt if I quit. It's hard for me too. I want a good future, career, income, my own property. See..I have a dream.

To my friend, I'm sorry if I ever hurt Ur feeling. I apologize if anything happen when I quit. Forgive me for I have made u feel sad. I wanna thank you, because of u I got this job. Because of u I learned a lot of things. Because of u I got the chance to meet a lot of people(where some of them are so annoying and make me pissed off). Thank you so much because u had helped me ever since we met. No, this has nothing to do about u. Yes, it is because of 'him'. Maybe I'm weak, that's why I can't stand to deal with 'him' anymore. I AM SO SORRY.

Aaaahhhhh..I feel relief..

"God I pray that You'll give me the strength to face the life I'm dealing with. I need to be strong, then people won't say I'm too bad or weak for them. I want to be someone who's worth to be with. God bless me. Amen"

Hatin' on The Club

Hatin' On The Club Lyrics

Now this will be the last time you did me wrong
No more laying up in your arms
No calling, saying you want me back
I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?

I stayed at home like a good girl do
But tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car, yall kissing at the bar
Got me crying

[Chorus:]
Oh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhh(why..)
You got me hatin' on the club(why..)
You took my love(why..)
Why'd you have to take my love(why..)
Whoahh...

And you can be mad at me all you want
I ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front
Coming out the door with your girlfriend
You did me wrong boy tell me where our love went

I stayed at home like a good girl do
But tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car, yall kissing at the bar
Got me crying

[Chorus:]
Oh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhh(why..)
You got me hatin' on the club(why..)
You took my love(why..)
Why'd you have to take my love(why..)
Whoahh...

Now this is the sound of a broken heart
There's only one reason why we're apart
She never woulda made it to your car
If it wasn't for the club,I'd still have my love(I'd still have my love)
We would still have us(We would still have us)
I'd still have my love(I'd still have my love)
We would still have us

But now we're like whoah

Oh, you got me hatin' on the club
You took my love
Oh you took my love

You got her hatin
Boy you got her hatin on the (A)
You got her hatin
Boy you got her hatin on the (A)
You got her hatin
Boy you got her hatin on the club, club, club, club
(Fades)

Online Chatting

Hari ni sya mau cerita pasal online chatting. To tell u the truth, I'm someone who are not really into online chat. But I love to make friends from it. Sya malas bah sebab kadang2 orang yang bawa chat mau cakap pasal s*x, bikin geli saja. Ok no offense yah, saja mau share cerita.
Sya mau tulis dalam BM ja, sebab takut ada orang baca.. hehe..
I'd finally found online chatting ni siok, bukan macam time zaman remaja sya*kunun*. haha.. Ya la, dulu2 konon, 'asl plz'..haha.. sekarang direct terus. But again, I don't like to chat with someone yang mau cakap pasal s*x saja, kalau sya kenal lain lah..

Currently, sya ada la chatting sama few people. I'm interested with one of them, bukan yang gitu2 ah. Siok ni chatting sama dia. Kadang2 macam addicted mau chat sama dia..walaweh! Tapi kadang2 macam nda buli pecaya juga, a bit flirty bah ni tanak wagu. FYI, he's not a Malaysian and I know that tanak wagu from FB. Bah yang sott dia, mau bawa kawen?? lalalalalaaa.... Lucu juga la, sebab bukan sya kenal pun. Whatever it is, sya nda pecaya suma kata2 dia. haha.. Sudah nama dia chatting, buli la main2 cakap.. Mentang2 la dia hensem, jadi dia buli kasi main2 orang. Sya belum budu lagi. haha! But it is fun to chat with him, he's so sweet. Sya nda heran la kalau banyak perempuan layan dia, sebab dia hensem..lol..*sindir diri sendiri*
Tapi bagi sya, tu tanak wagu nda la begitu hebat. Mulut manis saja.

ps: pengajaran dia, online chatting bukan nda best, cuma mau tngok sama sepa kita chat kan..

Shaheen Jafargholi Sings "Whose Loving You" Britain's Got Talent

Another great contestant after Susan Boyle!

Can't wait to see next..

Stupid Friend

I will do anything to someone whom I consider as a FRIEND. That is why I called myself a STUPID FRIEND. I regret being that kind of friend. There's once where I was in dilemma, and once where I have to be a bitch. I DON'T MEAN TO DO THAT. But I was lost. Luckily, that person forgive me, and hopefully he really forgive me. From that time, I've learn a lesson.

OK another story to share. No offense okay, I just wanna say something which is true and maybe I have too tell u because it's really true and I don't have to apologize because of this. But this has nothing to do with any of u who might terasa, because it's the old fairytale of mine. Okay? Well, actually not my fairytale, just a thought of mine.

How does it feel when a friend used u? God it hurts a lot. U are actually helping them, but you've being the victim. Being attacked by some people because of the kindness u gave. My fault. I know they're choosing the wrong path, but I am still there to support them. In the end, I am the REAL VICTIM. I am angry! Who doesn't right? So, maybe because of that I have the guts to attack back. I did, but again I am still the victim. But now, I am thanking God for His guide. He gave me two choices, I chose the right way.

And now, I really hope both of them has change. For the girl, u don't have to say those stupid words over and over again just because u've done a big mistake and u tried to cover it. Don't be plastic. Popularity is just like mee meggie if u doesn't change your behavior. And yes, family must always be in the 1st place especially the kids. I may not be perfect, but I learn from the best, I learn from u. The truth is out there. Hope u understand. For the boy, love the girl who love u. She's really in love with u. You've hurt me before, but I forgive u. That's all I wanna say. Sometimes what some people say is true and some of it just a story, but still, nobody's perfect. All people made mistakes, forgive and forget is the medicine. Except for some GREAT CASE.

Till then, see u next post.

*hugs*

Haiya!

I've done some research about Maybank and Forex. Maybe I'm too excited sampai lupa mau check sijil-sijil yang patut dibawa. Ok padan muka! Well, I forgot to bring my curriculum certificates. Luckily, my kampung is not sooo jauh from KK. They didn't asked for my curriculum certificates, but just incase kan, orang bilang 'sediakan payung sebelum hujan'. Hopefully, they won't ask for it. They won't right?? I only have my academic certificates.

Aha! Another thing is, my MUET punya result. For me the result was ok, since I didn't study time exam MUET. But how can I show them if it looks like this???!!

this is not because of me!!

I didn't know what happen to my poor paper. Well, actually my friend punya mama yang almost terbuang result saya sampai jadi macam ni. Yalah, memang boleh ambil lagi balik ni exam tapi kesian lah saya. How am I going to show them this? Or I shouldn't show them because the result is just so-so. Kogutz punya result kan, tapi almost got band4 juga..sigh..

OK lah, mau study dulu. Pening kepala macam jawab soalan exam pula.

*hugs*

Job Interview

Really need help from u guys. It's two more days for y 1st interview. I've never experience any job interview before, except the fake interview punya assignment la time English class dulu. So, I need ur opinion, suggestion, etc etc la about this thing.
Seriously, I'm nervous. I don't really know the environment of being interview by the real interviewer. I'm also excited. Will I get the job? Or am I going to be kick out from the room in just a few minutes? lol It's still too early to think about that. I should think about the question and the answer of course! But I'm afraid because I think my English language is too weak! Mati lah kalau dia speaking, entah apa yang saya jawab.

Random questions:
Tell me about yourself
What do you know about this organization?
What have you done to improve your knowledge in the last year?
Why should we hire you?
What is your greatest strength?

Well, I do know how to answer some of it but if they ask something more complicated, then I'm done. lol.. I'm nervous, afraid, excited, but it doesn't mean that I'm not confident with myself. I know I am qualified for the position based on the job requirements. But yeah, it's my 1st time..huhu..

ps: ok i know, less makeups and jewelleries

Kundasang + Ranau

Ok..I am right now at Ranau..Was at Kundasang(Kg Kinasaraban) to attend wedding invitation, but no more room at Perkasa and Kinabalu Pine so we have to go to Ranau..pok pok mau pegi Hotspring juga ni..hehe..here we are at a low cost hotel, but I don't care as long as I can sleep, rest, shower, relax, bla bla bla..Surprisingly, ada line 3G! I didn't expect that, sa teda bawa laptop lagi..cis betul!(sa pinjam laptop si Ridah kejap)
Ok..I don't have much time..I only have 15 minutes lagi, Ridah will takeover..haha..no lah..it's her turn, since it's her laptop..lalalala..ok lah, see u guys later!

ps: will upload something from kundasang + ranau

*xoxo*

KE Next Top Entertainer Season 1 Final

TARIKH: 17 April 2009
MASA: 7:00 Petang
TEMPAT: Dewan KDCA, Penampang

AMARAN: MASUK ADALAH PERCUMA (FREE OF CHARGE)... INDA TIPU!

Untuk maklumat lanjut, sila hubungi/SMS:
Jason Jay Prinze (Jason) - 016-8461914
Marc Mojitoh (Kadus) - 016-8021500
George Duat (Gogds) - 019-5305512
Callixtus (Tomkurus) - 019-8807851

atau

layari laman web rasmi KaDus Entertainment di www.kadusmusic.com.

Ok..Actually sya tolong promote ja..hehe..Sambil2 support industri muzik tempatan kan..I will be there to support my friends yang dapat masuk Final, Georgia Joy, Carrey, Ferdy, and Marlynie..Sorry if salah eja nama. And Good Luck for them.
DAN...hehe..Time tu juga akan ada penjualan CD album pertama Ridah. So, whomever wants to buy the CD, boleh lah datang juga. Don't forget to come yah, support our local industry.

thanx

~xoxo~

Penat Gila Bah!

Yeppsss...we just moved in to our new house last week..I mean my family yah..I am very happy because I've finally got my own room, eventho it's not that big, but cukup lah untuk saya saja.
Nda banyak juga mau di cerita ni, tapi lama nda story2, jadi melalut dulu laa.. hahaha
Ok laa, let me story2 bout our new home..It's really new, baru siap last week. I'm a bit dissapointed juga la, because ada lubang di siring. WHY? haha.. U don't wanna know. But I'm happy(again). It's located not far from our old house(or should I say rumah pusaka?), it's about 800metres laa. Jauh ka? Memang jauh kalau angkat barang nda guna lorry. I tell u! Last Sat sya angkat la konon barang guna kereta sorong(full ah, yg berat lagi..demm), at 1st i don't feel the pain, but a few hours later, peha sa sakit bah, macam yang baru balik dari pesta tari menari ni..haha..I'm not lying. Maybe because I've never done any heavy job for the past few months or years. Kira macam kejutan budaya mengangkat barang.

What I'm trying to say is, moving on to a new life(home) is not that easy. The happiness is always mixed with the tiredness. I u get what I mean. Somehow, we have to sacrifice something to makes us and people around us to be happy. Penat gila macam mana pun, I still love my new home. And I love my family

I've Graduated

That's what i wanna tell u guys since Saturday..hehehe..I am now officially a Diploma holder. But then, I am still not satisfied with that. Why? Because I don't get pingat..LOL.. Just kidding.. But yeah, it's everyone's dream to get CGPA or HPNM more than 3.5 right? I did not make it, but I am still happy with my result. But I'm hoping that someday I'll study again, mau kasi naik lagi tu educational background dalam resume..LOL







Btw, that's me, babe, mom, and friends during the convocation day. I didn't took many photos since I forgot my camera in my bag. We are not supposed to bring big 'things', ok my bag is big..LOL.. So jadi palui kijap, bagi tu beg sama my mum. After I asked my mum to pegang my bag kan, i realize that my phone, camera, and WATER was in my bag! Kitai betul, suda la kepala ada hang sket, pastu haus tahap dewa. Nah terasa la dari jam 8 pagi sampai jam1 baru terminum. The truth, I was afraid that I'll suddenly pingsan sebab kurang air. Thank God everything works perfectly. I am blessed.

And yes, I am proud of myself. Thanks to all my friends and the lecturers..

Quick Update

Life is just unpredictable.

I'm not in a good mood, so I'm gonna do a quick update. Maybe I'll post something tomorrow or next-next day or whenever I feel like writing something. Currently, I'm not in a mood of posting. Confused. Blank. Sad. Stupid. U name it....

Gudnite everyone..

~xoxo~

*hugs*

Oh it's April Fool!

And that is the reason why I don't wanna go out today. Afraid if someone or somebody will 'April Fool' me..LOL..
How's your 'April Fool Day'??? GOTCHA!!
Luckily, I never been 'April Fool'..haha..

Have a nice day!

ps : i wanna change my blog's theme..but i don't know how.. i've tried many times, but still not working *sigh* i feel stupid