Thin or Fat?

What do you guys prefer? That does affect me. Either you thin or fat, people will still complain. When you are fat, some people will ask you stupid question, such as, "Are you pregnant?" And when you are thin, they will ask, "You didn’t eat kah?" Duh! I’m not a super-skinny girl, but I admit that I’m thin. I did eat some extra vitamins before, but the pills make me feel tired and sleepy, I drink Milk everyday and other weight gain product, I eat 3-4 times a day (enough ka that?). None of it works. I think so.

But then, I am afraid to be fat. Because, I’ve never seen myself fat before. I’ve never imagine, me wearing those L size clothes. And I think my friend will be shock if I’m fat. Haha… No hard feeling for those who are fat. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings, this is just a thought about myself. :)

I don’t really wish to have a body like Beyonce or Jessica Alba, I just want the ideal shape for me. I am 157cm, so if I’m 50kg (BMI - ideal), that will make me feel great! Yay… Unfortunately, my weight is less than 50kg. Last time I checked, I’m 43kg, but it was last year. So now I’m wondering, do I look like someone who loses weight or someone who has increased her body weight? Oooohhhhhh… I’ve been trying so hard for this. I don’t want to look like Victoria Beckham, the tulang-mulang look so pathetic!