I'm Sorry, I Wanna Quit

Feels like quitting. I know it's gonna hurt my friend's feelings, but how about me? Thanks to her, I got this job and I have monthly income. But I don't like to work with 'him'. The more I know about this person, the more I know that he's kinda annoying. Yes I don't have any experience about this job, but I do know how to do it. But since I'm not really into 'him', I think I should quit. I've been humiliated once, I don't want to be humiliate again and again. I felt so embarrassed crying in front of many people. Only God knows how I feel. Maybe this job doesn't suits me. Maybe I should stick to be 'the singer' not 'the assistant'. lol! This is not about jealous or whatever it is, it's because of 'him'. I don't like to feel distress or stress or pressure when I work on something, coz it will make me feel angry(of course!) and distracted. I don't want any bad things happen, so the best thing is I should try to avoid. I know I won't get money if I quit my job, but my feelings is much more important than 'his' money. I don't wanna work to someone who's actually 'have to' accept me(I know that). I mean 'have to' is like 'I don't like u but I have to hire u because of someone'. No, please don't do that to me. U know what? I always feel bad for that, I doubt about my working skills. Am I really that bad? I am sad. And at the same time, I felt pity to my friend. She had faced this situation since she started working with 'him'. I know how stressed she was, what she had been deal with.

I have my own dream job too. If that's not what I want to be, then I'm not going to be serious with it. And yes, my family also wants me to get a good job. My sister did told me to find another job. I did. Hope my friend won't get hurt if I quit. It's hard for me too. I want a good future, career, income, my own property. See..I have a dream.

To my friend, I'm sorry if I ever hurt Ur feeling. I apologize if anything happen when I quit. Forgive me for I have made u feel sad. I wanna thank you, because of u I got this job. Because of u I learned a lot of things. Because of u I got the chance to meet a lot of people(where some of them are so annoying and make me pissed off). Thank you so much because u had helped me ever since we met. No, this has nothing to do about u. Yes, it is because of 'him'. Maybe I'm weak, that's why I can't stand to deal with 'him' anymore. I AM SO SORRY.

Aaaahhhhh..I feel relief..

"God I pray that You'll give me the strength to face the life I'm dealing with. I need to be strong, then people won't say I'm too bad or weak for them. I want to be someone who's worth to be with. God bless me. Amen"